Disconnections

I wrote these lyrics a while ago when things weren't great, not finished but still in the process.

Inject me with the right directions towards the light
In misery I feed from the deprivation deep inside of me
I have come to realise that gods don’t have voices but people have choices
on account of this current state of mind, set with foundations of failure
i am breaking, struggling to find some stable ground
in despair, oceans rise and claim my will to survive

i have been treading water for many years, trying to keep my head up above the tides
trying to keep myself from falling under and I’m up to my neck in all this reputation
This bleak September has seen the last of me
why do people suddenly become so incomplete, its all too much to comprehend.

the view from the heavens doesn’t make it seem so complicated
am i meant to break, was i meant to break
well I’m breaking and it feels half right.
please send me on the path towards the light
if i needed anything from you,
it would be the guidance in the right directions, for my family

i hear the angels cast my name into the shadows and as i sing
the hand of death grasps me as fate welcomes my return,
in different worlds we reunite, I will return to you
i have torn myself apart and separated myself from you.
im alone i am ruined, please god release me..