Today was pretty swell. Woke up, went to school, bludged and came home excited that is was the weekend, well obviousley :P I found out not long after i got home that mates of my brothers were coming over for the footy, parra vs eels, so i decided to bring a few. I coulda sworn 50 people showed up haha. Food was good, we chilled and footy was pretty intense. Parra won of course, the game started off slow but finished crazy! During this time i downloaded and encoded district 9 cause unfortunately windows media player or any other so called media player could not play this video, so here we go.. sacrificed computer speed for a day :( Tomorrow i have a big day, i have to get up at 10, shower, eat and drive to Concord with my Dad to see Rebekah, its at least 30-45 minutes drive so it will give me some hours on my driving record. So im pretty much planning on getting there at about 11:30. Haven't spent time with her 1 on 1 in a while so im pretty excited to see her and her family and just catch up to everything on her end. So tomorrows going to be a good day :) My taste for house/electro music is dominating at the moment and to be completely honest i am drawing MAJORITY of my influences from it, kinda odd considering im in a heavy band :P So as a whole, things are going pretty great and im only hoping they stay this way! Oh and schools finishing next Wednesday! Thank God, i have no idea what the future holds for me but im motivated to find out!
For the record, for those who may or have been reading. i dont expect anyone to read this. I write this blog to get things off my chest and considering i use the computer 24/7 i figured i could use this as a diary sort of thing.
xo
Friday, September 25, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
Disconnections
I wrote these lyrics a while ago when things weren't great, not finished but still in the process.
Inject me with the right directions towards the light
In misery I feed from the deprivation deep inside of me
I have come to realise that gods don’t have voices but people have choices
on account of this current state of mind, set with foundations of failure
i am breaking, struggling to find some stable ground
in despair, oceans rise and claim my will to survive
i have been treading water for many years, trying to keep my head up above the tides
trying to keep myself from falling under and I’m up to my neck in all this reputation
This bleak September has seen the last of me
why do people suddenly become so incomplete, its all too much to comprehend.
the view from the heavens doesn’t make it seem so complicated
am i meant to break, was i meant to break
well I’m breaking and it feels half right.
please send me on the path towards the light
if i needed anything from you,
it would be the guidance in the right directions, for my family
i hear the angels cast my name into the shadows and as i sing
the hand of death grasps me as fate welcomes my return,
in different worlds we reunite, I will return to you
i have torn myself apart and separated myself from you.
im alone i am ruined, please god release me..
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Friday 11th, September
Today was a very typical day. Woke up, dressed myself, did my hair, washed my face etc etc. By the time i arrived at school it was around 8:30 so i practically just walked straight into welfare(roll call). My days at school seem more pointless by the second, classes are finished, we just sit and do nothing and teachers are still sarcastic pricks. I was held back after school for detention because i tore up a letter and turned it into a pick, so as i could play guitar and no one had a pick on them. Quite a pathetic excuse for a detention but what can i say, its Bossley Park high. I had music performance night tonight, where we perform our songs in front of parents and staff of the school, it was horrible. The song choice of mine was not wise in the slightest, a reasonably heavy song with a three piece band. To be completely honest, it was embarrassing. Performing tonight for me turned out to be a social event, as any other school activity and in saying this, i came to realize that my effortless attempt towards my HSC was becoming more and more evident. Quite ashamed and embarrassed i left the building, got in Tates car and we drove to McDonalds. Crispy chicken deluxe meals after a night like this was heaven, it could have been a drug, i swear!
Once i arrived home, my usual "winding down" routine took place. Getting into my pajamas, laying in bed and browsing pointlessly on the internet whilst listening to music. A significant and rather positive conversation took place between my friend Rebekah. We started talking and ended up having a long DnM which was quite a relief and also a bloody interesting conversation. Not going into specific detail as to what was said, but i think in saying she is an amazing girl, pretty much sums it up. Rebekah has always been a rather close friend not always as close as certain times in our relationship but she has always been somewhere in there and i like holding her close to me. Tomorrow my band is playing at AIPA, hopefully this should be an exciting and eventful night and i am pumped, bitch!
xo
Once i arrived home, my usual "winding down" routine took place. Getting into my pajamas, laying in bed and browsing pointlessly on the internet whilst listening to music. A significant and rather positive conversation took place between my friend Rebekah. We started talking and ended up having a long DnM which was quite a relief and also a bloody interesting conversation. Not going into specific detail as to what was said, but i think in saying she is an amazing girl, pretty much sums it up. Rebekah has always been a rather close friend not always as close as certain times in our relationship but she has always been somewhere in there and i like holding her close to me. Tomorrow my band is playing at AIPA, hopefully this should be an exciting and eventful night and i am pumped, bitch!
xo
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Wednesday 9th, September
I havent written on my page for a while now, to be completely honest i totally forgot i had a blog:S
Anyhooo, lately things have been pretty decent. My band played a solid show last friday, was more then satisfied with my performance, let alone the bands. Sub drops were good, we were tight and people got into it! About time! Well that was the highlight of my week. My parents have been away on a cruise for a while, one of the p and o cruises ( pacific dawn i think) and responsibilities of the house were left we me and my brother. To be completely honest, we abused it and went out as much as we could and had people over as often as we could, it was fun! That chapter of my life has come to an end as my mother and father arrive home from their cruise at 7 o clock this morning. I am so happy there home, of course it was all fun and free when they were gone, but i honestly missed them like crazy! Im just curious to see their reaction on what i had done to my hair:O yes, after many days of serious contemplation i decided to go forward and go blonde! Its honestly not as bad as it sounds! it really suits me and i am more then happy with the result! On the downside it cost me 1oo dollars! all up including a cut. I guess its not too bad.
As of recent, i have acquired a a sickening hate for many people around me. I have had a massive epiphany in regards to the many fakes, low life and pathetic people this world possesses. Certain people disgust me in who they are, who they fall for and who they pretend to be. Out of all honesty, i have no business in any of there life situations, but i have most certainly acknowledged there actions and have learnt to be true to myself in the way i act and to the people who deserve conversation. There are many good people out there, it just takes a blind eye to see them.
Anyhooo, lately things have been pretty decent. My band played a solid show last friday, was more then satisfied with my performance, let alone the bands. Sub drops were good, we were tight and people got into it! About time! Well that was the highlight of my week. My parents have been away on a cruise for a while, one of the p and o cruises ( pacific dawn i think) and responsibilities of the house were left we me and my brother. To be completely honest, we abused it and went out as much as we could and had people over as often as we could, it was fun! That chapter of my life has come to an end as my mother and father arrive home from their cruise at 7 o clock this morning. I am so happy there home, of course it was all fun and free when they were gone, but i honestly missed them like crazy! Im just curious to see their reaction on what i had done to my hair:O yes, after many days of serious contemplation i decided to go forward and go blonde! Its honestly not as bad as it sounds! it really suits me and i am more then happy with the result! On the downside it cost me 1oo dollars! all up including a cut. I guess its not too bad.
As of recent, i have acquired a a sickening hate for many people around me. I have had a massive epiphany in regards to the many fakes, low life and pathetic people this world possesses. Certain people disgust me in who they are, who they fall for and who they pretend to be. Out of all honesty, i have no business in any of there life situations, but i have most certainly acknowledged there actions and have learnt to be true to myself in the way i act and to the people who deserve conversation. There are many good people out there, it just takes a blind eye to see them.
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